strong enough for the both of us

"The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still." 
~Exodus 14:14

Just Those Few Weeks

For just those few weeks

I had you to myself.

And that seems too short a time

to be changed so profoundly.

In those few weeks,

I came to know you...

and to love you.

You came to trust me with your life.

Oh what a life I had planned for you!

Just those few weeks...

when I lost you,

I lost a lifetime of hopes,

plans, dreams and aspirations.

A slice of my future simply vanished overnight.

Just those few weeks...

It wasn't enough time to convince others

how special and important you were.

How odd, a truly unique person has recently died

and no one is mourning the passing.

Just a mere few weeks..

And no "normal" person would cry all night

Over a tiny unfinished baby,

or get depressed and withdraw day after endless day.

No one would, so why am I??

You were just those few weeks, my little one.

You darted in and out of my life too quickly.

But it seems that's all the time you needed

to make my life richer

and to give me a small glimpse of eternity.

~S. Erling

  

A few weeks can change a lifetime.  Believe it or not, March/April were almost as hard as September 2012.  A lot of rehashing old wounds.  I came across this poem the other day and it describes my feelings perfectly.  Thankfully, in the midst of all the pain comes many blessings.  


So, I've decided to make a list of the beauty in the broken:

• I've built relationships with girls who can relate to me, relationships that I didn't have before.  They have often been a listening ear and so understanding of my roller coaster ride. They didn't offer pity, just sincere sadness, but hope that we'll see our babies in heaven one day.  
• I've been able to be that listening ear to girls who've been there after me, praying somehow God can use me.  My heart breaks every time. 
• My marriage is stronger than ever.  Dave and I can sit and dream about our future, we can talk about our future kids again without there being immense sadness.  The Lord has truly blessed me with a rock in the form of my husband.  I do not thank God enough for him.  
• I am truly thankful for the friends God has sent in my life.  They are always there when I need to unwind and often offer a breath of fresh air with not too much talk of pregnancy, etc.  
• Even though we don't have kids of our own, yet, Dave and I can still have a blast together.  I have a healthy husband who loves me with all his heart.  I enjoy whatever we do together...Dave always has a  way of making it fun. God has blessed me.  I don't want to take for our time together, before kids.  

I could go on forever about the many blessings I have in my life.  God is good, all the time.